Decisions

Building a home is a lot
about making decisions...
the color of the walls and the curtains
the number of wine glasses in the kitchen cabinets
the brand of coffee you are going to drink every morning
and how dark you want it
marmalade or honey on toast?

who is going to be invited in?
where to place the lamps, the sofa, the bed
who you want with you in your bed

for me it is also about finding my own voice...

my particular way of looking at the world
it is about discovering on the way
the kind of feminist I am and I want to be

it is about traveling
but this time I am not going around
from one city to another
with a 15 kilos backpack

Maybe thats why it has been so difficult
start making decisions, I am avoiding  them
I am afraid of staying in the same place for too long
I am afraid of becoming a marble statue
looking at life passing through
my blind eyes